And last night, I started a new cycle. I think I went on a date.
I say I think because, I'm not ready to date again. I'm just not interested in dating right now. I was hoping he didn't pay for me so I could have reassurance that he wasn't calling it "a date" either. Sigh. But, he smiled at me alot, stared at me with "those eyes" when he thought I wasn't looking, laughed at all my jokes. I don't even know why I went. I played myself for that. My girls seemed more excited about me finally having went on a date than me. I was an hour late and I wished so hard that I would call him and he'd say he left already because I was taking to long. I genuinely hope he's not into me. Because I'm not really into anyone but me right now.
I think I'm just gonna fade to black on him. I'm heading out west in a few weeks anyway.
Wow, I'm really a loner.