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Is it 8 yet?

My week in review...

Situation 1:
Him: Guess what?
Me: What???
Him: I'm movin to LA on the 26th

*Cue Coldest Winter - Kanye West, 808's & Heartbreak*

Situation 2:
Me: Umm, yeah...lets just be friends...
Him: Lol. Oooooooo k

He looks like Travie...but he's not :-/

Situation 3:
Me: So you just not gone speak to me Q?
Him: Maybe, maybe not

See why my friends always hated him.

This shit is a mess. The best dude I ever met is leaving but, its a good thing because his company is growing and he deserves it so being upset about it is completely selfish. The stragglers are all aesthetically correct but, lack that special something. And I can't even backslide because my ex is a miserable fuck.

Remember the days when dating was careless and free? Can it be that it was all just so simple then? Now everything is so complicated because everyones playing for keeps and the wrong move can fuck up the rest of your life...or someone else's. I can't just date a dude I'm really not that into now. Before it didn't matter but now...if he catches feelings a year from now he could possibly propose to me and now I'm the bad guy because when I turn him down he learns I was never really that into him. Its so easy to become the bad guy these days. Before everyone I knew was having fun.

I've only had two relationships in my life. One boyfriend and one man. I got a boyfriend when I wanted a man. And a man when I wanted a boyfriend. Now I want a boyfriend who'll grow into becoming my man. I'm not ready for a man right now. I want to grow with someone so when he becomes my man it'll just make sense. I don't want to give anyone a key to my place or even think about moving in together, getting married and having babies. But, I don't want to wonder "where I stand" either. Lets be friends, best buds, talk shit, tell secrets and of course be boy and girl...for right now anyway.

Too much to ask?

7 comments

K.icks M.aterials H.er said... @ December 22, 2008 at 1:47 PM

Awww man T-neezy :D , I feel you cuh. This year has been fuckin lame(relationship wise).

The whole "don't deserve you" quote has been re-occuring. Which makes me ponder, is it possible to find exactly what you're looking and in that same token... Them finding you to be the same?

-_- its a lot easier just to love stuff and family,lol. But even stuff breaks or rips, or fam can shut your shit DOAAAWN! Ha! I don't know if dating can be easy. It seems like someone is always going to linger on or be hurt for a long time. That "being friends" thing is pretty hard too. Ecspecially if that's not what you were looking for. I just attempt to lose contact with anybody who's on that shit,lol. Or keep their number just so I can send them updates on things they aren't involved in but couldve been,lol. I send it in the form of a foward, like I sent it to everybody,lol.

I'm a lame, ha

Teneille said... @ December 22, 2008 at 2:52 PM

LMAO @ u sending it in the form of a fwd text...hahahahaha

But yeah kid, shit is crazy fugazi over here :-/ and I cant even say maybe '09 will be better bcuz im going to be crazy swamped with work...so maybe 2010 will be better, sighs

K.icks M.aterials H.er said... @ December 22, 2008 at 4:41 PM

Ah, me too! I say we find someone equally busy for '09(for those "not so busy" days). Its a stretch, but it might be possible. Work is dope and all, but when its clock out time...

That's right tho, u got a plus over me... Ur son :) . But yea, '10 should be pretty O taaaay!*fingers crossed*

Mr Sykes said... @ December 22, 2008 at 9:50 PM

T, I got a song for you,...."
Young hearts run free, never be hung up, hung up like..." let me leave that last part out in case he comes cross this lol

Camillia Tamar said... @ December 24, 2008 at 3:25 AM

awwww man, this is why i hate reading, somehow it always brings me back to reality. I just wanna live dream land. @K.icks tooooo funny with the forward texts, but so true. We all self-conscious, YOU just the first to admit it.

Camillia Tamar said... @ December 24, 2008 at 3:31 AM

awwww man, this is why i hate reading, somehow it always brings me back to reality. I just wanna live dream land. @K.icks tooooo funny with the forward texts, but so true. We all self-conscious, YOU just the first to admit it.

Cee the photographer said... @ December 27, 2008 at 12:02 PM

Thats some real ass shit yo

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