"Trying To Maintain My Sane"

So, I've been laying low in my personal life this past week. Not returning calls, checking voicemails or responding to most text messages. Guess I'm reverting back to my infamously introvert ways. I'm usually my most sensitive when I get like this. Mentally, I've been fighting with the reality of the direction my career is taking and how far it's straying from what I ultimately want to do with my life. Will anyone ever take a "certified fashionista" serious as a novelist? Sigh. So while I've been preparing myself for the demands of my new job as the Market/Accesories Editor for a new high fashion print mag out of Chicago I somehow managed to write a ten page outline and character analysis of the novel I've been dreaming about for the last two years. Not sure what I'll do with it, where it'll take me or if I'll ever have the balls to go after a publisher for it, I'm still proud to say the concept, themes and story are all mine and has the potential to be the most purest text I've ever conceived.

Meanwhile, I'm happy I finally have Cold Pillow on my IPod. It's been on my myspace page for the last two months (maybe more?) and everytime I think to change my song I hear it again...and I just fall in love with it all over again...

Cold (cold) pillow tonight (night), sigh.

Theophilus London ft. Jesse Boykins - Cold Pillow