From Newness To Just Plain Annoying

This personal blogging shit has made me paranoid. I'm known for being an open and unapologetic kind of person but, lately I've become super secretive of the moves I make (hence why my twitter was deleted) and especially in my love life. But, I'm having an "I don't give a fuck" kind of day and while I have a million and one work related issues on my plate right now, hearing "Travie's" voice on the phone just now bought to my attention the innocent hint of newness that somehow still exists between us. My mind trips to the days of "newness" past and I can't help but blog about it.

Newness. You know the feeling you get when you first meet a guy and everything about him is so yummy. His laugh, his smell, his anticipating eyes as he hangs onto every word of some crazy story you're telling. Or the way he can't stop complimenting your killer shoes. Ahhh, the newness. When his quirkiness and all his little weird subconscious habits are insanely adorable. Oooooh, the newness!

I can remember when I first met Travie. YIKES! His eyes are beautiful, he has this raspy Quiet Storm Radio Show Host voice going on and he has that air of mysterious sexiness like Nas did when his tooth was chipped. We haven't spent alot of time together because my schedule has been a mess (ie. I'm slightly just not that into him despite his looks and I think he might be balding so that's been kind of turning me off :-/) but, I wonder if we were spending time together what would set me off and kill the newness.

My ex and I aren't speaking (again) so I'm going to take this opportunity to talk shit about him (again) :).

I remember when we first got together and for a while after, we could spend hours around each other and nothing he did annoyed me. I just felt content being around him. So when he came over a couple weeks ago I was amazed at how pissed the little shit he does annoys me to no end. I'm watching tv and he comes in and downloads some crazy bootleg movie program on my laptop without asking and proceeds to watch Street Fighter ridiculously loud while I'm trying to watch the news. About 20 minutes into the movie his ass is snoring in the middle of my bed with his ugly brown blanket (which happens to be the material of a teddy bear). My mother thinks we're hilarious. Cece thinks we need a reality show. Mind you he's seeing someone, so I guess when he feels like being annoying, he just pays a visit to his ex-girl/homegirl to let it all hang out. SMH. He's the last ex I'm ever going to be friends with. Even Yung's Dad is just not doing it for me these days. When I met him, he was "built", "like a football player". Now his ass is just fat. And he wears entirely too much brown. I'm starting to think he's related to Zeus (LMAO). I know that's Shaina's boo, but, that fool wears too much brown.

I need a fun new home-boo. Not a home boy but, a home-boo.

Sigh.