Letters From The Editor 9

What do I think of success?

I have a crush on success. And its like these days, I'm crushing on him obsessively but, I haven't quite gotten him where I want him yet. I mean, we've seen each other at parties, been introduced over and over again through mutual friends so I know he knows my name but, it isn't quite personal yet. I'm treading lightly because I know his type. Everyone says he's got his eye on me too but, that he's just playing "hard to get". The times we've made eye contact has tasted so sweet. Its a split second soul strumming that makes me yearn for him more. I daydream about the day I can take him home to my family. I know everyone would love him. I can see us showing up together at the family BBQ's, his presence alone inspiring the youngins. When we'd make love, he'd fill me up with a million little ideas that'd grow inside of me and I'd birth a bunch of little successes. Shit'd be crazy. But for now, I'm playing it cool. Admiring him from afar even though we're so close it feels like we're the only ones in the room. I'm aware of the ugly side of his reputation and how he's turned so many before me out. Heard he ran through his fair share of chicks so I'll probably gain a few new jealous ones. Fuck em though. Its inevitable that we'll end up together, everyone says so. But right now, I'll just keep on doing what I'm doing and soon enough he'll look around and realize he wants me just as bad as I want him.